“I am not skilled to understand what God has willed” — or the way i grieve

unplanned escape. driving with no end or reason. down a winding road. windows down, allowing the country air to fill my lungs and heart. music up, drowning out anything unnecessary. thoughts and tears coming as they will. unforced. yet uninhibited. this is how i grieve. not your way. and that's okay. ...just wish you could [...]


5 reasons i know the grinch attempted to steal christmas but failed — or part 1.

[on relationships & happy] i wasn't going to write today. correction, i had every intention of writing today. not about this though. about something else. about what the title alludes to. about how i figured out the grinch didn't steal christmas after all. about how it came together in it's own way. about how the [...]

“I think a minute’s enough…just beam me up” — or on death and grieving

[on sad & happy] Through this continued exploration, I've come to terms with the fact that sometimes my happy has to include some sad. some loss. some grieving. The past year has definitely allowed me the chance to take notice of this, providing me with plenty of unavoidable slap-in-the-face opportunities to reflect. What I've learned (so far) [...]