In a different life, today…

In a different life, today... I might be celebrating 10 years with you perhaps still unaware that unhappiness isn't a necessary part of life ...or love assuming that the highs and lows are a personal fault an "I must have done something wrong" mistaken ideal one you never seemed to concern yourself with or seek [...]


we ain’t kids no more…

I'm sitting at one of my favorite Starbucks in Miami, staring out the window at the sky. On my left, the sky is covered in ominous clouds that threaten rain and fill me with a tinge of despair. On my right, a bright light blue sky with white streaks of shapeless clouds fills me with [...]

An open letter to friendships faded and friendships lost.

[being over a thousand miles away from both cities that helped build me has left a lot of unconscious space for thinking about the relationships that have faded over the past 10 years or so. I learned that I'm good at fading. In some ways, it's felt safer than tear-filled goodbyes or clear-cut it over. [...]

Clenched Fists.

[anxiety & happy] Clenched fists -- this was my unconscious attempt to contain the anxious energy flowing through my mind, through my body. ..take a look for yourself:       It was pretty eye-opening to see it captured clear as day. irrefutable evidence of the anxiety that rushed within. to realize that everything you were trying [...]

Goodbye, Chicago – or on letting go

[letting go & happy] I think it's time to let go. I, like many, have held on to some things that aren't benefiting me or my happy. Mostly, I think it's time to let go of expectations, of what will or could or may never be. I think we'd all be a bit happier if [...]


[soul(mates) & happy] I never believed in soul mates. Or at least not in the stereotypical sense of the term. You know, the "romantic, true love, meant to be united, destined and fated and together forever" sense. ...I still don't believe in that. But I do believe in soul(mates). Let's explore. I started thinking about [...]

“there you go…again” — or we’ve all got one

[on love & happy] "baby there you go again making me love you I stopped using my head, let it all go Got you stuck on my body like a tattoo And now i'm feeling stupid crawling back to you So I cross my heart, and I hope to die, that I'll only stay with [...]